Do you ever stop to think about how many beautiful things you have in your life? In today’s world it’s becoming increasingly difficult to find the time however, on this rainy Sunday afternoon I believe it is fitting to reminisce. Snuggled on the couch, wrapped in a blanket and listening to the raindrops fall, I envision each little drop to be another reminder of the love and goodness that has been bestowed on me in the last few months.
There I was, fresh out of college and I found myself surrounded by girls who were either engaged or driving themselves nuts to find what we all want in our lives…
I had just come to grips with losing someone special in my life because it just wasn’t in the cards for us. I was seeing other people again, or at least trying. I already had one strike against me, but I thought I’d go ahead and try to get ahead in the count.
Two strikes later and I decided it was time to bench myself.
I guess you could say it was the best decision for the team. I had way too many other things to focus on, so why keep swinging away if the bat and ball were never making a connection?
It was an easy decision for me and I couldn’t have been more thankful. I have to admit that seeing other girls stress so much over finding their soulmate made it so much easier for me. What is it about us girls that makes us so afraid to spend time being single?And why do we take it so personally? It was these two questions that made me want to prove everyone wrong.
I decided that I was going to be single… and love it!
The funny thing was that it actually worked. As conceited as it sounds, I fell in love with myself… and it was bliss. I wasn’t scared to be single and I didn’t want to jump into a relationship. I even turned down some offers. I dove head first into my job and my friends. And then it happened…
I fell in love.
The one I thought I had lost returned and just like that, the feelings I had for him came cascading back over me like the raindrops on my window right now. I immediately started building a wall. Brick after brick, building higher and higher until I didn’t have to face those feelings on the other side. Those bricks couldn’t go up fast enough.
But he pursued.
And just as quickly as I put a brick on top of my wall, he was taking one out from the bottom. Finally I couldn’t deny it any longer. Not only had he said to me everything I have ever wanted him to say, he showed me as well. It was then that I found myself tearing down the same wall that I had built up so frantically.
As I kicked the last brick away… there he was.
It’s amazing how some of the most beautiful things in our lives, come at the most unexpected times. Even the rain. I never expected such a downpour of passion and joy. Much like kids enjoying a summer shower, kicking off their shoes and throwing their umbrellas aside, I too am dancing in the rain without reservations.