I just recently had a birthday. I find it interesting that during a time in my life where everything seemed to be going perfectly, my birthday was less than perfect.
Now don’t get me wrong I had plenty of people write on my Facebook wall and text me, but for some reason I still felt unloved. I went to work and then out with the guys afterward. It felt like any other Monday night.
I knew that any other birthday after 21 would be hard to look forward to, but who would have thought that 22 would be a complete dud.
I guess I got the best present though… perspective.
Waco is not my home. I loved going to school at Baylor and I love my job now hosting the afternoon show on Mix and doing segments on ESPN Radio. However, I can’t help but feel that this is not where I am meant to stay. It is without a doubt the exact place that I am supposed to be at this point in my life however, a puppy can’t stay in a crate forever. At some point he grows up and needs a backyard, a playground if you will. A place where he can run around freely doing exactly what he loves.
I’m growing out of the crate that is Waco.
I’m in that awkward phase of trying to figure out how this whole adulthood gig works while still holding onto all that is college. It’s great that I have a tremendous start to my career at M&M Broadcasters in the same town that I went to college. I think that’s a great way to ween me off of being a kid while preparing me for the big show.
One of my friends said today that, “Everyone here would rather be somewhere else.” I’m starting to believe that’s true. I never really thought about where I would end up until I lived in New York. I could literally end up anywhere. That is both terrifying and exciting. But you know what, I can control the terrifying part. That starts right now with where I’m at.
It’s time to buckle down.
It’s time to stop holding on to the things of the past and start looking ahead. Each day is another step to where I want to be. The athlete in me sees this as a challenge.
Is it ironic that Baylor’s theme for football this year is “Rise Up”? No. It may be coincidental, but not ironic. I think it’s a calling on my life. It’s time for me to rise up. Time for me to realize my future.
It’s perspective, Jessica. Happy Birthday.